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Wednesday, November 5, 2014

It is Time ...






hi Everyone! 

During the past two months when chemo was finishing
 and radiation was dominating my life,
I realized that I am a 61 yr old woman
with
breast cancer
that still has to fight for several more months
(into May of 2015 still). 


I miss my family! 
I want to spend every possible moment with them.


I was chemo sick all summer!
I missed out on many family experiences and
I want this winter to be full of
joy, laughs and kisses with my
grandchildren.

chemo has changed me.
It brought me
to near death and
I have realized I must spend more time
with my little grandchildren while I can.


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I may be just fine and survive beautifully, but in the 
meantime, I want my husband, family, bowzer and real life
to be more consistent.  They are who I want to spend my time
with because I treasure them and that is where my heart is now.

My blog can wait!


I am taking a break from now until 
February 2, 2015.

Fashion ITEM Friday 
will resume in February, also.



If you would like to reach me and
check on me

my email is:



or you may leave comment here in the comment sections of any of my pages or posts.

I will still make occasional family posts on Instagram
(that is so dang easy)





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Love Love Love 
to each of you, my dear friends!


bye-bye for a while
 






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Monday, November 3, 2014

just saying: Crazy Dayz





hi Everyone! Now seriously I am NOT COMPLAINING, I'm not!  Just stating a fact:  Since last week prior to our Trunk or Treat, I have been in constant catch up mode.  I have figured out that when the pain subsides from any of these medical treatments I have had, then I have energy and I start doing catch up on everything from organizing my bedroom closets,  to keeping the dishes done to paying bills on time at the beginning of the month and such and such and so on.

This past weekend I was finally PAIN FREE from the radiation "sun burn".  {btw, that is the wrong name for it; it should be a "inner radiation burn that is working itself out of your body!"}

These medical people, hrumtp!  I am always needing to correct their verbage.  chemo = "you'll be tired". WRONG!  "You will be MISERABLE!" is the truth!   radiation = "toward the end of the doses, you'll have a sunburn typed texture to the 'area' ".  HAAAAAA!  "You will get a sunburned, sensitive breast and it will burn and be so horribly uncomfortable for your last 8 doses and then,Then ...THEN that burn could last upto 2 weeks after you are done getting the doses!!!  so beware!"  That is really what they should have said!!!

TELL THE TRUTH, YOU STINKIN' DOCTORS!!!!!  Tell - say  - speak to me in the real thing, no more sugar coating, doctor politeness or whatever the POLITICAL CORRECT thing is!  



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I will admit to this: 
•  I do feel so much better now  -  finally  -  no more pain.
•  I do have energy again but stairs and longs walks are still a challenge
•  I am smiling more and that makes HM feel releaved {man, I cannot thank that man enough!}
•  Life is starting to get back to normal; less doctor appointments vs. more relaxed home life



Blogging about my thrifty deals will resume on Wednesday.
 

I have not one minute today to create a photo shoot 
and 
tomorrow afternoon is Baby Z's 1st Birthday Party!!!!!  
Yes, sweet little troubled birth baby boy is lively and healthy 
and hasn't even had any type of illness at all in his first year after he 
spent his first week of life in the hospital!!!  




Oh how I love this little guy!
He is so full of personality, spunk and love!!!


You can also see this post on Instagram {HERE}








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Friday, October 31, 2014

"Fashion ITEM Friday" #48 ~ Happy Halloween





AND




My Fashion ITEM today:

HALLOWEEN

and bragging up my daughters is good! right?


{Numbers 1,2,3 & 5 are oldest daughters kids and
Numbers 4 and 6 are youngest daughters kids}
I WAS REALLY SCARY --- A DOCTOR!!!  MMWWHAHAAHHA, yes
and Captain Jack Sparrow is my oldest grand 'daughter' , ya she was Captain Jack.  LOL
My daughter's made most of these costumes for their kids.  
They are so and 'sew' creative!!!


OLDEST DAUGHTER WITH CUTE BABY Z  
{Minnie and Mickey}

YOUNGEST DAUGHTER (of 2) W/ BABY LML 
{Crook with her Loot,  see "$" on his tummy?}

Last night we went to our church's Trunk or Treat.  You know kind of a play on the term Trick or Treat, but it is more fun!  I love participating and sharing at a Trunk or Treat because it is done before Halloween (extra party) and it is done in the evening / dusk light so you can see all the cute costumes and the space is controlled in the parking lot where they are safe, everyone opens their trunks or the hatchbacks or whatever and shares candy with the children as they parade around the circle.  My daughter's families came too and we had a super fun time!!!  


Sure hope your HALLOWEEN will be / is fun!  
It is suppose to be Fun!  
The ghouls and the goblins can just take a hike!   
Maawwwhaaahaaa!!!





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Thursday, October 30, 2014

just saying: TBT ~ Happy Halloween







Yes this is me, Renae of Simple Sequins, doing my best rendition of a Witch with what I had.  I was a thrifty witch.  Mmmwahhahah!  It is also the first photo of me posing on my blog.  MAN!  MY HAIR WAS LONG THEN,  THAT IS NOT A WIG! {throw back to October 30, 2012} at my church's Trunk or Treat!  I am attending it again tonight!  My entire family is going to be there, Yay!!! {photos to follow here and on Instagram}


Happy 
Throw Back Thursday
{TBT}


and

HAPPY HALLOWEEN
TOMORROW!






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Wednesday, October 29, 2014

just saying: Much Cancer Talk





Since October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month and since I have breast cancer then you would imagine myself being the most obnoxious blogger in the whole world wide web that would be marching to the hilltops to commend those that have hailed the victory and won the WAR.

In fact, I think many of you think that now that chemo is over and radiation just got done, that I am no longer in the battles and that I have conquered at any cost. 

Sorry to burst your bubble cupcake, but I am so far from being done and better and declared cancer free, it ain't funny.

My story started last year, in my heart and in my head.  But I didn't reveal it to my blog audience that I had the disease until late January.  Until I knew I absolutely needed chemo and that my hair would fall out and I would be too sick to blog consistently, I wanted to keep it to myself.  I was in sheer desperation when I learned chemo had knocked at my door.  I just wanted the lumps removed and radiation and you guys wouldn't have been the wiser.

No such luck.

Wasn't in the cards.

Can't flip that coin again.

I'm frankly tired of talking about it.  Not just me but hearing about October being "BREAST CANCER AWARENESS" month.  I know, since I have cancer I should be more of a colleague, a partner and spokesperson.  But, I know I have cancer.  I know I am fighting cancer.  I know that many others are fighting cancer and ...I know there are many that are fighting a losing battle.  Fortunately my case is mild, but I also know things could turn on a dime and I would be in grave danger.  I have a 98% chance of survival.  ...2% chance of dying from breast cancer.  How do I get that 2% erased?   Well, by jumping through every hoop my doctors places in front of me.

She says "6 cycles of T C H!"   I say "OK!"  (TCH is taxatere and carboplatin {two chemos} and herceptin)

She says "6 weeks of Tomo Therapy"  (very targeted radiation rays are shot into my breast where the lumps were. Which btw, is still on fire hot and red and painful).   I say "OK!"

She says  "17 doses of herceptin for a year, ...once every 21 days!"  I say "OK!" (and is still saying "OK" because that is continuing til May 2015 in through a port placed under my skin last April.)

She says "now take this pill daily forever to block estrogen from feeding any new cancer cells" -  oh wait -  this one causes blood clots and this one causes osteoporosis so lets decide that in a few weeks  --- when your boob has stopped being on fire.  Ok?"   I say "yes, ...thank you!"

I jump through all those hoops in that order before I stop hearing too much cancer talk. 

I have been hearing it for one year.  Not in all those words but the discussion began a year ago, last Saturday, October 25th.  That was the farthest thing from my mind that day a year ago.  When I discovered the lump in the shower, I rushed into instant shock and denial.  I was so shocked that I didn't think of it ALL day.  Completely forgot about it.  Stunned brain denial for about 12 hours.  When my husband and I were getting ready for bed  - Uuut - I remembered ...and asked him to feel and hear his opinion.  Right then and there I HAD TO start to have too much cancer talk.

Cancer is an emotional disease.  You form an emotional opinion immediately when you hear that someone has cancer and when you hear YOU have it, the emotions run back and forth and over and over and up and down and back and up and forth and down.  You learn to hate the word, the disease, the process.  I still hate it.  

Right now, today, this is my agenda. 
1.  Put aloe vera all over my left hot on fire boob first thing and
     an extra smattering of curacaine on that bad spot.
2.  Eat a meal and drink plenty of water and get ready for the day and / or take a nap
3.  Take anti-nausea pills and try to blog, watch tv or go somewhere but not very long anywhere.
4.  Repeat number 1-3 every 4-5 hours 'til I go to bed

I've have completed chemo.  I've have completed radiation.  I'm still getting herceptin.  I still have to take anti-nausea pills.  I still have to take a nap or I sleep-in 'til 11 am some days.  I still have to have a cancer doctor know what is going on about me.  I still take between 6-8 prescription pills a day.  I still have cancer.  Nobody has declared me "cancer free".  Not yet anyway.

I'm done tho.  I am done talking about cancer.  There has been too much cancer talk around this blog.
By the end of October - Halloween - All Saints Day - I will stop talking about cancer.  I am a doer about cancer now!

I am going to do whatever it takes to get cancer completely out of my body.  I am going to eat right, sleep right and exercise right.  The talking is done.

The living is ON!




Tuesday, October 28, 2014

polyvore: Springtime in Autumn Finale







Springtime in Autumn
via

COAT  | HAT | EARRINGS | SCARF SHIRT | JEANS | WATCH | POLISH  | BOOTS | PURSE

hi Everyone!  Sure hope you don't mind seeing two polyvore posts in a row.  Sure hope not.  This is #4 in our renditions of boy-friend jeans going the distance.  This YELLOW coat was irresistible.  Then as I built up around it, I discovered the kid in me came out.  I sent it to publish and the next thing I knew I has selected (accidentally, for sure) a solid gray top that was like $200.  Gulp and yikes, so I switch it out for the hilarious Donald Duck face "Genius" rather, for around $21 instead.  Yes, it is more fun to have cool threads and not spend a fortune getting them.


Getting myself back to posing is not in the cards, right now.
RADIATION IS A BIT HARDER ON ME THAN I HAD PLANNED / HOPED.
It is over as far as getting the doses each day but the burning still burns and will for about 10 more days.  Ya?



 
What is your favorite item in this inspiring posts?










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AND AS A REVIEW...


#3 BOY-FRIEND JEANS GO DRESSY


BF Jeans Goes Hollywood  

via




#2  LET'S GO TO THE MOVIES

Let's Go To the Movies







BF Jeans Goes Shopping





Monday, October 27, 2014

polyvore: Boy-friend Jeans Go Dressy






BF Jeans Goes Hollywood
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JACKET  |  HAT  | EARRINGS | TOP | NECKLACE | BRACELET | JEANS | RING | CLUTCH | LIPSTICK | POLISHFLATS


hi Everyone!  This is #3 of "working" these boy-friend jeans.  I am loving the pointy flats because we have such lovely weather in Utah lately.  I am not a necklace-wearing gal but I love the look of chunky, icy stones over creamy lace.  But my fave item is the blazer!  I love it's Sgt. Pepper's / European military styling especially in the solid black, which is awesome.  I picked blue polish cuz nothin' else was blue.  Once again each item in these post are under $50 each.  Oh, I could find the items that cost more but I prefer to stay on my thrifty side of life and keep a more practical budget to these inspirations for all y'all.



What is your favorite item here?


Would you wear this ensem to what; dining out, art gallery or ...what?







please note:  earlier on monday the jacket link was defective.
it has been repaired showing the current price and location where it can be purchased.


Ps. I have slightly done too much since radiation ended.
So I didn't get a new photo shoot done, yet.  Perhaps tomorrow.







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My Beige Clutch
from Charming Charlie via Savers
for 
FREE!

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Friday, October 24, 2014

blog hop: "Fashion ITEM Friday" #47







My Fashion ITEM today:

'CHARMING CHARLIE' BEIGE CLUTCH

It has quite the story.



Back in February, when the nearest Charming Charlie opened in the Station Park Mall, I was drooling over these clutches.  I wanted one sooooo badly because I wanted to build up my purse / hand bag part of my wardrobe.  Seeing these clutches in all sorts of styles, colors and the like {available HERE} , I was in hopes of getting at least just one.  However, they were then $20 and I felt that was entirely too much to spend on a little clutch.  HM gave me a watch for my Valentines present instead, but I sure wanted a clutch, too.  

So after months of being a shut in with the grueling misery of chemo, I finally had the energy to shop at Savers a few weeks ago {since chemo was done}.  ...and, what to my wondering eyes did appear? ... {no, not a sleigh and 8 tiny reindeer} but this clutch for  ...free!  Remember I still had a gift card from Savers from back in June, that I had not been able to spend yet due to being sick all ...summer .....LOOOOONG.

Man!  That is what I love about thrifting.  If you hope and wait (and suffer through chemo),(however not part of every requirement) your hopes and dreams will  ...awh  ...come true.  {queue angels singing}

  

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Thursday, October 23, 2014

thrift outfit: Throw Back Thursday With Fringe











hi Everyone!  By the time that most of you read this I will be finished with my last radiation dose / session!!!!  Let's all shout  HOORAY!!!  And ...yes, I also wore this ensemble to radiation yesterday.  It was a daily thing for an hour out of my day for the past 6 weeks.  The actual session / doses only takes 8 minutes but there are crucial measurements and intersections where I need to be in order to get the dose.  I don't fully understand it but I know it is vital to my treatment and that I can trust them that they know what they were doing.  I didn't go to The Huntman for the radiation.  There was a clinic about 10 minutes away that did the doses and it was just fine. Now I'll finish up the rest of my treatments until May at The Huntsman again, (you know the IV of herceptin and heart test and scans of my liver, etc.) 

Let's all repeat after me: 

NO MORE CHEMO
NO MORE RADIATION  

YAY!!!


Have you noticed I sure wear these cognac booties a bunch?

 

Do you remember this top from before when I modeled it?
YOU CAN SEE IT HERE AS MY THROW BACK THURSDAY ENSEMBLE!







ps.  some of my pics are sharp and some are fuzzy and I'm tired and ready for my nap, so c'est la vie.


 


THRIFT OUTFIT DETAILS
SAVERS,  'SHADE' STRETCH KNIT TOP:  $2
PLATO'S CLOSET,  'FOREVER 21' AZTEC FRINGE TOP:  $5
SAVERS,  BLACK JEANS:  $5
FOREVER 21,  COGNAC BOOTIES:  $19
PAPPARAZZI JEWELRY,  SILVER + TURQUOISE EARRINGS:  $5
FOREVER 21,  LARGE RHINESTONE BRACELET:  $3
GIFTS,  WATCH | TURQUOISE RING | CONNIE LEE BRACELET:  $0
TOTAL:  $39



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Tuesday, October 21, 2014

polyvore: Boy-friend jeans, #2 "Let's Go to the Movies"






Let's Go To the Movies

hi Everyone!  Today's Polyvore's inspiration comes with movie tickets!  Well, your imaginary movie tickets that will go along with this imaginary ensemble I would be wearing or you might be wearing to the movies.  That turtle neck and cardigan would be perfect for me, because I am always cold in the theater.  The bag is the main influence for the 'movie' concept, of course, the big bag that smuggles in your own licorice or dum-dums or smarties. {lol}  I can imagine that movie theaters make half of their profit from the snack bar.  So a $20 bag with lots of lumpiness is the right choice for the movies, for all the goodies you can smuggle in, in it.  Oh, don't forget the Runts!



What is your favorite candy to munch during a movie?
MINE IS LICORICE; EITHER BLACK OR RED!



Did you notice I didn't say anything about any chocolate candy? 
SEE WHY BELOW











Here's why:   
Back when my daughters were tweens, we would take chocolate candy bars; 
Snickers, Reese's PB Cups, KitKat or the like, into the movie, 
smuggled in of course.
But we learned our lesson.  
As we're munching in the dark we didn't realize we're easily 
dropping bits of chocolate and when the lights came up, our jeans
 had tons of little specks of chocolate all over them and
in some areas it was smeared because we would cross and 
uncross our legs, move around, etc.  
So no more chocolate candy bars at the movies!  
Yup, it's true.